Change

The last couple of weeks a lot has happened. Quite big changes.

But before that I was starting to feeling bored and frustrated. Coming back from the moste wonderful holiday in Rio I found there was nothing much to look forward to. Nothing much happened at work and all my friends were to busy with their families and I don't know what, but I never saw them. All normal people started to look forward to the summer holidays but that is just another stressful moment for me as I never know what to do on my holiday until last moment. Everyone was just tired or ill or just in a very bad mood. Life was simply not very fun. I took out some of my frustration in a status up-date on Facebook, a couple of minutes later I had received and basically accepted an offer of a job in Brazil!

It was an almost religious expereice, as if someone up there saw me and realised I really desperatly needed something to happen (although I know perfeclty well how it all happened). Two days later I had an official offer and the concent of my boss to leave. It all seemed like a good idea for everyone. As my previous office need to cut costs and there was not too much to do anyway it would all be fine.

What happens after that?! Well it seems the whole world seemed to go crazy. First a civil war in Libya and then the absolutely mad situation in Japan with earthquake, tsunami and nuclear accidents. Since then we have worked more than ever. It has been crazy busy and all the time I thought I would have getting ready for Brazil has just vanished. I still look very much forward to Brazil, but at the same time it feels strange to leave the office at such a busy time and sad to say so, also interesting times. Not that I like disasters or conflicts to happen, of course not, at times I have felt some kind of disaster fatigue, feeling I cant't hear any bad news anymore, getting all depressed and cynical, but still this is what we work with and then of course it is interesting to see how the systems work when things happen, it is interesting to be a part of the handeling.

But soon it is time to change focus completely! I wonder what that will be like! :-)

Change

It is amazing how fast things change sometimes. Unfortunatly I sometimes have the feeling it is more often to the worse, but sometimes it is really for the better. This Mondya I was so irritated and frustrated about my situation and my life here in Stockholm. I do really like my job, but felt a certain frustration for some time but worse is actually the lack of social life as everyone is so caught up in their relations and families or just simply too tired to do anything besides working.
I can understand that people are tired and don't have too much energy to do somthing else than just go home and watch tv. I am also tired at times, but I could not stand my life if working and sleeping was all I could do. Therefore, no matter how tired I am, or how much work I have I try to do things after work anyway. I go to the gym or would like to meet friends for a coffee or a movie or whatever. But this "whatever" is becoming rarer and rarer as no one seems to have the time or engergy. This makes me very frustrated. And this Monday it had really annoyed me. This time of the year makes things even worse, it is cold and people are sick and irritated with everything. So this Monday was just not a good day and I started seriously considering how to make a change.
The, out of the blue there was a light on the dark sky. A hope was lit and everything felt much better. Since, this have keept my mind preoccupied and things are still working out well. I have an interesting challange to look forward to! :-)

Not My Party

I have received an invitation for a school reunion, 25 years after leaving that class. It is the second reunion being arranged. I suppose the first one was ten years ago. I didn’t go then. I was living abroad at the time so I did not even consider it. This time I would be able to go if I wanted to, but I don’t think I will go this time either. I know a some people find these gatherings traumatic, where everyone will compete and show off who is the most successful or failed. Some may even worry about meeting their old school romances. I have no such worries whatsoever. I don’t have any old school romances and I don’t feel I have anything to prove and no need to show off. On the other hand I don’t feel I have anything to be ashamed of either. I feel quite happy with the way my life has turned out and to some I might even seem successful and having made some kind of career. The thing is I couldn’t care less.

I feel I have no interest whatsoever to meet any of my old high school class mates. The few that I like and would like to stay in touch with, I am in touch with and see every now and then, the rest… Well I suppose there are reasons why we don’t stay in touch. I have plenty of other friends in my life.

Not even the arrangement as such can tempt me to spend the 400 kr and drive the 350 km to go to the party. The dinner menu was extremely boring and the music described as “the greatest hits from the good old days” which in this case I guess would be around 1986. Oh my god! I can not think of a worse setting for a party. I simply don’t have that kind of nostalgic nerve at all. My life has moved on. I don’t feel any need to waste time on people I have nothing in common with, more that the fact that we happened to be born the same year at the same place, and talk about things that happened 25 years ago and listen to the same old music as we did then. I just don’t want to. I believe people who like to go to this kind of parties are the ones who either feel a need to prove they have achieved something or the ones that never get invited to any real parties.

Back to Winter again

Coming back from Rio has almost been a little traumatic. It was simply such a wonderful holiday. Maybe the best I ever had. I just love the place and want to go back soon again. I think I would also like to live there for a while.

Of course the coming back didn’t get any better by catching a very bad cold. Well, as a matter of fact I might actually have caught it in Rio, but there it never was a problem. Coming back to the cold climate however, it got really bad. I had to stay home from work three days this week and it caused me to miss a business trip to Bonn that I had looked forward to. But in spite of this and in spite of the cold winter and snowstorms raging I keep Rio in my mind. I keep humming some of the songs from the soundtrack of the trip and today I decided to look at the snowstorm from the perspective of a Brazilian. That turned the snow into something rather exotic, which made it much easier to endure

Rio next!!

Well, for some time now I have been considering taking up blogging again. The plan was then to continue on the Normal life as I am not travelling too much at the moment but still often encounter things that I want to write about. Most often it just results in a somewhat extende status-update on Facebook. However there are many things that would need more words that fit on FB and some things might not fit at all.
So having said this, I will most probably start blogging on my Travel-blog!
As things turned out I very spontanously decided to go to Rio. Made the decision and booked the ticket Thursday and I am leaving tomrrow.

This feels like a very exciting trip so I hope I will have time to write some and update on the travelblog. Rio next!!